This week I discovered Game of Thrones and it’s been a downward spiral ever since. I have been alone, so that hasn’t helped either. I often think that others are bad influences on me, and sometimes they are; they offer wine and put out chips and point me in the direction of free range cheese eating. But to be fair, as motivated of a person as I am in general, I am a horrible glutton when left to my own devices and without anyone to bear witness. So, I may have not only eaten absurd amounts of ice cream and almond butter this week (and I had some wine at 3pm yesterday), I also have watched nearly 3 seasons of Game of Thrones in the past 3 days!
I did also get out for a long walk and a bike ride and a run. And I have actually showered and did run some errands for essentials, but otherwise, I’ve made Game of Thrones my current occupation and I am not sure that today will be any different.
The weather has finally seemed to turn and luckily the snow is basically melted and the temperatures are above zero daily, and even above 10 degrees. Finally! This turn of weather makes it all the more difficult to comprehend that we are all in various degrees of isolation and that seeing my friends and family (outside of my children) is frowned upon. I also am becoming increasingly reclusive and think that I am far too content to just be alone and maybe that is a bad thing, although likely much easier than someone who is desperately missing social interaction, so I guess maybe it’s good.
My birthday is this coming Saturday. I would normally like to go out to eat with a few friends but I am actually very happy to be able to enjoy a dinner with my man and my kids and, as he is a fantastic cook and I get to make requests (something Thai and green curry, please!) Our home restaurant is often more delicious than going out anyway.
I like birthdays very much. My birthday has often been happy because I made plans to do something with my friends, that has made it special and enjoyable, but for many years it was underlined with some sadness and disappointment, because I knew that if I didn’t do it, I wouldn’t be doing anything for my birthday, and I especially wouldn’t be getting a cake. I’ve been the birthday planner and the cake maker in my family.
I’ve spent many years going and getting myself 2 cupcakes for my birthday and it became a tradition. But receiving a homemade cake last year was a very special thing for me. It was better than any gift and I don’t think that my boyfriend understands how much he making me dinner, and especially making me a cake, means to me.
And speaking of cake: Something on my mind this week is the seemingly inevitable result of weight gain during this time. Okay, okay it’s not inevitable. In fact, there is even more ability during this time to stick to a diet and exercise program because there are not social obligations and external forces that block exercise and sidetrack dietary goals. But as I sit and watch endless hours of all consuming epic television, and recognize my additional thickness, I sort of don’t care. I mean I do…but I also don’t.
I don’t want to get out of hand or not fit my clothes, and I am still marathon training and being somewhat active, but with no job to go to or places to be, it is far less movement than I am used to, and it is pretty easy to browse the cupboard and pour a bit more wine these days. I have the metaphorical cartoon angel and devil on my shoulders saying “Whatever, go have some more peanut butter” and “No! Have you not noticed the girth of that belly lately?” I have to say that the cute little red guy with the arrow head tail is much more convincing.
What a strange and unusual time. While I am not in a position where I can work from home, and I do have financial ramifications from having a fixed income that is less than half of what I normally make; I am pretty lucky that my biggest woes currently are getting a bit fat and binge watching too much TV. It’s very fortunate and that certainly isn’t lost on me.
Well I guess I’d better get on with my day and go run or bike before I get to work. Apparently “Winter is coming”.
Periscopecake 